Friday, 10 October 2014

Real Women L0L

"Un-photoshopped   "the female body-no matter what size or shape"

Examine closely for shaming of the skinnies

That's what the work that brought the term to prominence always referred to, real women. Women in the flesh, have curves. Whether women are thin or not, they curve. They have curves. Especially when their bodies aren't excessively gym modified.

An added reference of RWHC was working class women (in this case Chicana/Latina) and their bodies were made by their lives and their work. Where some of them get the "exercise" that doesn't count.

And that was the problem. WC +/or WoC don't count among the internet classes. "Real women" was cynically false flagged into "skinny shaming." That this nonsense was acceded to is pure and simply thin and class privilege. It had nothing to do with injustice full stop. The idea that thin/slim women ever feel less than real is not convincing.

Yeah, I'm sure they feel insecure in the face of an acceptably voluptuous woman, that's hardly the same thing.

The point of this sort of distraction is slim women still feel caught out by fat women's refutation of the pathology assigned them. They know they "should" support it, but they can't quite make themselves. And they can't think of an acceptable sounding way to put that.

Demanding meaningless shows of subservience is supposed to reassure slim people, but it never does.

Fat people as usual feel very guilty and responsible when slimz are distressed in conjunction with them, so went with this status politicking. Also perhaps to win them round [slim chance].

The irony is, real women have curves, was precisely in response to the surround of technically altered images of women that encourages all to see themselves through this lens of barely attainable. Thin and slim women keep trying to make a complaint about how its assumed they suffer no image problems. Forgetting that they've signed on for being the only acceptable human form/s and are supposedly thus due to their highly evolved consciousness.

If there was desire to communicate. This could have been an opportunity to explore this anguish honestly. Join forces to overcome it. Instead, women aren't ready for that so, the priority is "damage limitation."

Friday, 3 October 2014


This is one of the very bad places depression can get you to;
I follow his eyes to the figure huddled in a corner, head resting on upturned knees, a flimsy blanket covering her modest frame. A saline drip atop a metal pole is connected to her arm.“She doesn’t move from there”, the special offers.
Indeed, in our short time there, as we hover uncertainly, she appears as still as an apparition.....She refuses all food and drink in the next few days and needs intravenous hydration, which is not permitted on the psychiatry ward so she stays on our unit. .....the psychiatrist diagnoses her with catatonic depression, a condition aptly described in 1843 in which patients appear “in a state of stupor, with fixed gaze, a facial expression of frozen astonishment, muteness, and indifference.’
Here's why the body will throw everything it can in the path of something like this. Put it crudely, would it be better to gain 100lbs or end up suspended in the grip of this deathlike de-animated catatonia? That's a rhetorical question. I'm not seeking your imagined preference. I'm getting you to think more in line with your body's instincts and what kind of state it might go all out to stop you reaching.

We're so used to "depression" in the form of a relatively trivial misery that goes with a bit of exercise and self management. The sense of urgency the body might feel about it is lost. Ironic given the supposedly progressive touting of the importance of mental health.

Weight gain=disease process ignores the body's defence mechanisms against mental illness and just what the body might be defending you against. And how well they work-overall. The 'obesity' construct further trivializes mental health by using the destruction of mental health as "motivation" for its neuroses as treatment cure-anorexia and exercise bulimia.

Weight gain can be a defence against sinking into depression, like a life jacket trying to keep you afloat. Stop you from drowning, but obviously, not able to get you out of the water-that's the job of your conscious mind-including and up to enlisting the help of others. Bear in mind that weight is often a layered process. People are on a spectrum of weight, lowest to highest and in between. Weight gain can and often happens on top of/in addition to that.

It can be hard to grasp just how serious a potential threat depression is to your life.  Suicide is obvious, but if you've been depressed, felt miserable as anything for long periods, without feeling that, it may be hard to grasp the feverish activity of your nervous system trying to prevent a slide.

The closest I've ever been to this state was some temporary catatonia when I was trying to prevent myself from eating-this is the absolute truth! Long story short, I ended up with my arms up in the air in a claw-like pose. They'd risen on their own as my muscles got tighter and tighter on their own.

In slow-mo, I became aware of not being able to remember what I was not supposed to be doing, only that I had to keep resisting. I was paralyzed and couldn't move; not a metaphor, I genuinely could not move. I hung there for a while mesmerized by the way my conscious mind's ability to function ran out of any nerves to operate in. Taken over as my brain capacity was, by this rigidity.

So when people tell me, not ask, tell, that I tried minimal calorie restriction for five minutes then threw in the towel, you can imagine why I can lack a certain patience with them. It's also why I tell those who think they've barely bothered with dieting. Don't worry about that, people like me have. You were just more in tune with your body's own wisdom than I. Pat yourself on the back.

To but it bluntly, I was an idiot about dietary restriction. Even after this episode, do you think it occurred to me for one nano-second that this might be the last straw? I'm actually laughing as I type that.

How did this end? Well, after hanging there for what seemed a long time, with no signs of it abating. And, being unnerved by not being able to call to mind, yet knowing what I was not supposed to be doing- I decided to let it arms flopped straight down to my sides.

Tuesday, 30 September 2014

Shape Backlash

Since the beginning of the internet imprint of fat acceptance, a lot of slim/mer women seem to have struggled with an overwhelming bitch of a fact. Being caught out in their collusion with the official objectification of other women.

This has emphasized the objectification of all women.

They didn't care because they accepted their elevation by weight.  Being crowned with a (slim) halo obviously felt, feels uplifting.

Humans keep falling for this faux superiority elevation act. I suppose the hook is rooted in the optimist bias of our minds. Positive objectification feels positive, even when you are ultimately losing by buying into it as slim/mer people have.  

Witness spectacles such as women calling themselves feminist, insisting fat women we are "unscientific" by referring to the ways our bodies actually work in reality because that's not women's place. Men are the only one's qualified to decide that. How arrogant of us to "forget" [i.e. assume we were just self reporting].

Deviating from established fictions ballasted by male privilege has shown that women don't feel they have any real innate credibility in describing what it is to be human. We're more qualified in testing matters of the intellect like housework and crafts.

This has been one of those sneaky tests for women, one that has shown us up very badly indeed and no, I don't mean being competitive. Invoking banal misogynistic expectations of women under the guise of feminist analysis as distraction ain't cute. This is about women's conviction that reality is something outside us-something we receive, unless its fashion or something.

Proving our own unnecessary levels of disgust and contempt for ourselves as female human beings. Rather than worry about fat/thin shaming or what, let's just try and have the (feminine?) grace to end this farce shall we? It's dragged us all down.

And no, class-male is not to blame for this. This ones on us.

Nevermind, no-one's perfect right? Let she who's without sin cast the first stone and all that.

In the end, we all know: "Putting other women down doesn't lift you up." "Shaming thin bodies isn't helpful to fat women." We can see that now. What have slimz got out of this really? The media aimed at women is deluged with their multiple insecurities. They've not gotten away from their "internalized misogyny" by trying to dump that on lesser status women, it's just stirred it up. So why didn't they say any of this to themselves during their gathering enthusiasm for the crusade? Come on now.

We can see you!!!

And wouldn't you know who's currently fuelling this fire?

T/W: Contains lots of swears. 

spot any fat chicks up in this beatcch??!!

Enter Mz Minaj.

This piece of fluff is pretty crude in its erm storyline, featuring what Mz M's "anaconda" does and doesn't like.  But an aspect of its overall message touches on something quite interesting.

First at taste of the nontroversy;
Minaj actually raps; "Little in the middle but she got much back" "Yeah, this one is for my bitches with a fat ass in the f***ing club." "I said, where my fat ass big bitches in the club."[I'm being delicate tuhday.] Then she says "f*** skinny bitches.."

Ouch to the [thin] anorexics. Minaj is mostly talking about shape and how having one associated with femaleness is totes the best. It's a bit like the idea that slim is the only way to be human, just without the backing of the medical machine.

This kind of shape has been deemed a liability in the feminist era. In the aura of FA, plus Black women's necessary self assertion, she's proclaims the integrity of having an outstanding tush-on a small frame.

One irony is her (supposed) current arch nemesis's most startling physical feature is her very prominent hips, on a small frame. 

Feeling duly inspired she squeals; "fat ass big bitches" and then eff "skinny bitches", managing to prod the genesis of fat phobia in the feminist movement. Before you pseud me.

The way that a female identifying shape; big bust, big butt, big hips, big thighs goes against feminism's much favoured straight up and down/ muscular androgyny. Downplaying anything seen as emphasizing femaleness.

What these lady features have in common is fat mass. This is how "fat" has become such a devastating put down to women. It is the humiliating reminder of woman=lesser. Hence feminist's problem with fat and why women are called fat merely for not being straight up and down AND thin. Whether conscious or not Minaj slips from fat arse to big bitches.

The combination of fat phobic misogyny, plus feminist androgyny means women "feel fat", for being anything more than a gender pranging beanpole. 

I noted the "Buns of Steel" era with confusion, 'til I worked out what was happening. Having an andro, though fat shape myself, I didn't get the hip / butt anguish. Women, many of whom did not even see themselves as feminist let me in on this via their actions.

All kinds of women are in on this shape trouble. Having a female identifying shape has been almost a faux pas for a while. Hip and thigh whittling dominates the slimming and fitness industries. In the era when the un corsetted stomach has been a seat of profound disgust, we have been deluged with slim your hips/ buns of steel, slim/tone those thighs.

I knew it was inevitable that there would be some swingback from such an extreme position. Just never thought FA would help create the spark for it.

Monday, 29 September 2014

"Obesity Denial" Really?

Something I've never been able to take seriously is the incontinent application of terms relating to "denialism," whether referring to the form coined for those who would seek to deny the Holocaust or the delusions of grandeur therapy mess form.

Despite having total control of what is the mainstream narrative on fatness, that's still not enough to satisfy the insatiable hunger for what.............? Fat people's pain, humiliation, stigmatization, pathologization? I really don't know, do you?

Now we can add to this meaningless word generator of "obesity denial", referring to anyone not seeing things in the same loony tunes manner.

I happily refute the idea of people as disease. They obviously aren't and cannot usefully or indeed ethically be construed as such.  And, need I say, though fully on board with the lipogeddon scenario, the AMA's scientific committee-to their very great credit-felt impelled to point out no "disease" has been coined.

In case that's confusing. 'Obesity' wallahs can't define the "disease of obesity" because it doesn't exist, nor does what they're pissy about lend itself to that metaphor.  Either they have to define metabolic deviance or people's weight, they cannot collapse the two togehter. As they don't accept this reality and no one's going to make them, they've ended up just pointing at people and asserting "disease." Few feel to query that. Not because they have any respect for "obesity science" or the medical profession-the way they sue the latter to dirt, creating not a little of the bitterness they're working out on fat people.

Inevitably, this neuromush has been applied to any thoughtful unashamed fat person- as in they are engaging in...... "obesity denialism", dun-dun-duuuuuuhhhhhhr!!!!

This charge intends to shame by association with creationists and more latterly, those skeptical of climate change and/or the nature of.

Leaving aside rejection of the construct 'obesity' has come to brand.

This unspoken but obvious comparison exposes something fundamental about the nature of the delusional constructed view of fatness.

Climate, happens outside us all. 

Theoretically, it is equally observable (or not) by anyone, objectively so. We don't have those advancing climate change experiencing climate change as their physical being, versus those disagreeing not experiencing it as their physical reality.

That isn't the case with being fat. A fat person is experiencing their existence as an on-going physical, spiritual, emotional and intellectual process.

A person who isn't fat, isn't sharing that.

Casting fatness as if it's available to all equally, reveals the creepy extent to which fat people's boundaries have been eviscerated by those who seek to own and direct that. Here's 'obesity' folklore naked with its failure to write fat people as discrete sentient beings. This, not "looks" undermines if not cleaves other people's ability to relate to fat people as real. That definition becomes a mental block.

It also reflects the dream of the power elite working itself out in metadata surveillance controversies currently playing out. The desire is to know everything about you at a glance. Whilst they remain in the shadows.

Those protesting the loudest about privacy, are too often on board with this view of "science" turning others into powerless puppets. Imposing fictional roles of what they're supposed to be and/ or stand for.

That the difference between climate and being/not being wasn't immediately spotted by at least those who have some awareness of what fat acceptance is about, is a sign of how completely comfortable we all are with the idea that fat people are neither conscious nor autonomous.

That we could possibly be informed any by our own experience of being. This is the kind of thing I'd point to when people regurgitate such sj platitudes as "We don't have to change society does." Are you sure you don't want to change this? Because I'd say its desirable, in fact necessary.

No one deserves that to happen more than those who really thought could replace human consciousness with a puppet version and get away with it forever. That's what I call motivation.

How about it fat people?

Tuesday, 16 September 2014

Obesity Junk

There's a new 'obesity' drug on the market. You may not have heard of it because really, wgad? Gig Pharma's slimming drugs have been universally execrable. Toxic, of barely perceptible efficacy, possessed of a cornucopia of harm generating effects, many of which uncannily turn out like those "associated with obese."

This one looks just as cute. It's a mixture of this and that. Results exceeded the placebo by 4.1% (as much as that). So much for 'obesity' is addiction.

Businessweek seem surprised by fat people's seeming indifference to toxic, useless prescription tabs. Rightly so, none of this has stopped this kind of crud from getting takers in the past. That probably aided the reluctance of insurance companies to pay out for this crap now, which is a hurdle in the US.

Pill taking has ceased to be a mere act. The act's become an article of faith. In more quack riddled areas of soft science. We've learned to take drugs not simply because they work, but also, because the idea of them working works, like weight loss dieting. That can release the placebo effect in us. The placebo effect is hard to perceive when it comes to reversing weight though.

There's placebo, where there's room for it. 

Fundamental levers of human metabolic function are not known to be located in the conscious mind, the relationship between them and the mind are more indirect and unknown.

Neurosis is different, people are haunted by the notion of- you can pull yourself together at any time. So, insisting it is illness has a different context to what people feel are issues with weight.

Of course, 'obesity' is cast along with neuroses such as; depression anxiety, eating disorders. Actually, fatness is cast as just about everything; a decision, an eating disorder, mental illness, substance ab/use, neurosis, gluttony, pleasure seeking, a sign of trauma, unhappiness, a way of exiting the sexual meat market, a physical micro aggression, a way of insulting your spouse, child abuse/rape prevention.....

Versatile ain't it?

You'd think people would be tired enough with this to just knuckle down and accept, you find out what something is by studying it, objectively. Fact gets in the way of the imagination though.

The placebo effect in neuroses can be breathtakingly effective because there is a direct relationship between your ability to think and your ability to alter the course of your own thinking. Put it this way, your mind is a self healing entity. Your whole body is. Think of cutting yourself and the way your body stems the bleed, forms a scab and if serious enough a scar, then that fades perhaps completely.

In your mind this is complicated by the trickiness of manoeuvring your mind, using your mind. You in the form of your conscious awareness, are part of the process. 

People often prefer the [promised] reliability, convenience, and depersonalized ease of a magic bullet-or the idea of and are ashamed of both. We are increasingly secular. Faith healing's a bit of a no-no.

Now this process as a whole has become a placebo for bringing about weight change, which is being crow barred into this mould.

Weight is has never yielded to this. It can't be bullied like people. Ethan Lazarus, a Colorado obesity-medicine [lol] physician;
He likened the country’s current view of obesity and its need for treatment to that of “depression back in the 1980s,” and said it would take some time to change attitudes.
You have been warned. Expect docs to be riding your fat arse to take this junk soon.

Clearly, the whole let's make people as disease official is supposed to bypass fat people's sobriety. It's of course overlooked that fat people tend to more sober than the average non-fat person.

Fat people tend to drink, drug and smoke less than those who aren't. Sorry if you're a fat drug and drink loving smoker, not meaning to leave you out. But, overall, sobriety tends to go more with higher weight.

That's one for those who've decided in their wisdom to cast fatness as 'substance abuse' I used to joke about turning fat people into slim junkies, but it seems to be on. The whole crusade is about turning fat people into slim people. With that though, you identify some real things about slim that don't appear in advice lists entitled "How to think slim"

When people stop drugging, drinking and smoking, there's a tendency to fill out.

Yes it's true there are fat junkies, and a binge-drink habit can fatten a person substantially, especially over time. And some smokers are fat.

Overall though, the relationship is thinner user, fatter sober.

There's an interesting balance at work. Fat people's overall risk of liver disease could be slightly elevated in comparison to others. Sobriety could take pressure off the liver. It seems a good idea, and is something to keep an eye on if fat people get junky.

I have never been convinced myself that weight reversal requires drugs, just a more intelligent way of seeing things and a better target. I wouldn't rule out drugs, but they'd have to be short course not long term rent seeking, that's currently the holy grail.

Like most lies, those telling them are most convinced and aim an onslaught of in person persuasion to get us on board popping pills. There will no doubt be takers for this nonsense. Neglected people desperate for positive input will submit to abuse of all kinds if it comes with the appearance of care.

And any harm done can be turned into proof of the harms of 'obesity'. I'm looking at the pushing of surgery. Just like the impact of stigma became the harm 'obesity' does.

I truly hope fat people can maintain their lack of enthusiasm for to the culture of junk. I honestly think everyone needs us to. 

Monday, 15 September 2014

Weight Stigma

It's Weight Stigma Awareness week from the 22-26 September 2014. it's the third of an annual event from an organisation called BEDA-Binge Eating Disorder Association. It's purpose is to raise awareness about binge eating disorder [BED]. Sounds ominous.

The last grand push for eating disorders awareness was anorexia which started thin people getting harassed and accused of being anorexic on sight. Similar may happen with fat people being defined as binge eaters on sight. As has already happened with the risible "food addiction." Plenty of fat people will "confess" to it too, whether they have hyperphagia or not. There's the definition of fatness as eating disordered and the indistinct diagnosis.

I couldn't diagnose shit with this sort of thing. Nor am I sure I can grasp or be sure of what binge eating disorder is as distinct from hyperphagia nervosa or compulsive eating disorder though I do see there does seem to be some kind of distinction. I get its eating a lot in a short time. What I mean is a deeper sense of its specific discrete momentum. All of the major ED's have them.

It's absurd that its in the DSMV, but as ever "millions of people are now recognized and validated" is the reason, not fact. I'd prefer explanation and an accurate grasp of my condition. No one should look to psychiatry for validation, that's giving it even more power than it already has.

They have a twitterstream going right now @WSAW2014, which is where I saw this;
Weight stigma could be said to be just another way of saying fat stigma. Discouraging that requires people to stop stigmatizing fatness. To undergo a process similar to neurotics seeking to re-train their nerves to a calmer state.

Thursday, 11 September 2014

Know What Bluffing Looks Like?

Check this premise;
A study suggests that African American women in the US have a different picture of what unhealthy weight looks like than medical experts, prompting suggestions that pictures should be more widely used with health messages to counter the new normality of excess weight
Lipophbes got everything they wanted and more yet everyday is a tendentious groundhog day with them. They got it wrong and cannot acknowledge this to themselves, instead they have what a friend called "point-finger disease".

Society's shift to the right of the weight graph was entirely predictable. I saw there was nothing to stop it continuing. Given the investment in individuated calorie restriction experiment and the refusal to accept its results. All eggs in that basket + doesn't work="new normality" ahoy.

I've no issue with showing what BMI 30 + really looks like. But why so sure Black women are wrong and Medical professionals must be right? Lol [so comedic.]

Seriously, how do they know this doesn't reflect some extent of overall physiological difference in comparison to other races? Fat and muscle percentage differences vary between as well as amongst races. Black people seem to be at the higher end compared to others. That's probably true-though not necessarily in the same way-of others like Pacific Islanders or the Maori of New Zealand.

This nark swerves those advocating for people with anorexia. They tend to get antsy when the line is drawn at the more prevalent "stage 1 obesity." It doesn't match the barely interrupted death threat hype of 'obesity' promotions Inc. It can at times look eerily close to the acceptably weighted even chubby people closer to the majority of PWA. The emaciated poster children seem to be more acute phase than everyday, how typical.

Always looking for an extreme to illustrate the mean.

The media itself has veered towards fat outliers. Those with a BMI often way above 40. I get the sense this is an instinctive lean towards matching the quel horreur tone of the crusade. A lot of people feel this way, often not perceiving themselves to have crossed that line, considering themselves: "Nowhere near obese." Having preceded by announcing they're; 'overweight'/chubby/plump/could do with losing a couple of stone.

Do the math/s as they say.

They seem underrepresented in surveys. In this case a sample size of 69.
The researchers point out that there is a long history of African American women feeling more satisfied with a large body size than non-Hispanic whites.
"Long history" eh? There hangs resentment. The 'dissatisfaction' of especially middle/upper class White women is not all it seems. Humble bragging has greater cultural currency. Women know their assigned worth and it doesn't tend to match what survey says. Looking at your body and saying "What, this old thing?!" is not the same when you are surrounded by constant validation of its image.

And no, I'm not going to be popular for saying that. WM/UW's bodies also have a different currency in their own race/class milieu than others deemed below them socially has in theirs.

Anyway, this rather obtuse mis-reading of Black women has been a big bone of contention [have at the puns] for oh, just about everyone. That includes professionals who seem to have trouble not assuming they must be right about everything in this area, despite their desultory impact. Such an extent of taking themselves for granted as the standard by which all should be measured, is bracing.

How can I put it, not everyone has to agree with that. Even if AAW aren't on the same page, what basis of presumption makes that a good idea?

You've heard of double consciousness? When the imposed cultural pretense of universal rules for good citizenship gets kicked in the nuts by the needs of one's position in society's hierarchy. Basically, a lot of people have to go along with the idea of a universal set of ethics, skills, attitudes, but then have to live the way that will enable them to actually live, capice?

Resistance to outer dictates of supposed inferiority are a necessary facet of mental self defense. That's a triumph, not a pathogen. Black women are affected by this surround though. Self value is personal, but it also merges with the political at some place.

Black women's self assertion merges with their ability to survive and thrive within that. It's just the time of take responsibility everyone claims is sorely lacking. Do clueless professionals really want to tear into that? To achieve what exactly? Fanciful notions that might not even be what they seem at face value? This is one of the reasons why they don't always get far with this kind of effort. They aren't listening and paying attention to the needs of the people concerned, preferring instead to pontificate.

That all these women accepted the premise of ' a healthy weight' tells you they're not uncaring about weight, they just haven't reached the deranged levels achieved elsewhere. There's a big question mark over the purpose of the 'obesity' crusade. Slimming fat people is a mere a potent entry point for influencing behaviour.

Yet, those demanding this right to interfere in people's most private beliefs, thoughts and habits tend to go apeshit if others demand close to that level of self examination from them, if not at their instigation.

White America takes more drugs and has more anorexic/bulimic eating disordered behaviour as part of its weight regulation strategy. Though that's a highly charged point. Black women also seem less inclined toward alcohol and cigarettes.

I can't say for sure that repressing weight aggressively would lead to a rise in some or all of these areas, but it's worth bearing in mind context, when making comparisons. Put it this way, I wouldn't bet against it. It's worth noting there's a discrepancy between the weight of middle/upper class men and women, why?

It doesn't feel like much of my business-though I'm ever curious-but hey, if they're to be held up as the standard to attain, these things need to be out in the open. Are they ready for this?

I'd be a tad more wary of trying to match the weights of either Black women or indeed working class women of all races to those of White middle/upper class women and concentrate instead on increasing well-being and health. Try matching habits to actual context and the demands made on people. Don't presume.

I don't doubt something's gone awry with some AAP's diet. A better focus would be on reviving cooking skills of the near past, history lessons, connecting with older relatives and such. Seeing which still remain, encouraging the obvious ingenuity and skill that's still out there. And spreading it as necessary.

Dietary content does not lift the weight of society off you, nor does it free you from the constraints that your body just has to adapt to. Attacking what may be defense is not a good move, people aren't willingly "self destructive."

Repeat, real ways to reverse the body's weight must be found-it's been done. Things that don't require the whole of society to go on a diet. Come up with genuinely individual solutions- the extent of persistence with defunct wld shows how popular that idea is.

People don't want their lives and heads managed by others just to alter their weight. They want to do that directly. Nor do they want to their fate to hang on the reluctant, those whose bodies are unsuited to a low-cal existence or those who are hostile to their bodies, culture or lives. Sooner or later we will need to grasp the nettle on how metabolism truly functions.

Let's not forget the outliers, those who have actual metabolic problems. They should not have to be cut into the mainstream's obsessive compulsion with anorexia.